Deep Down In Dark Places
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I was just thinking today where I have been in my life and where I am going. My mind drifted to my early years. Looking back on things I can see how my past effected my life negatively for years.
I can’t say I was physically abused growing up, but I struggled with Fear, Doubt, low self – esteem.
Maybe some of you can identify with that?
Those negative factors caused me to go through life always second guessing myself. The irony is that most times if I would have just listened to my initial feelings I would of probably picked the right thing to do. From these experiences I always think of this quote.
I’d rather regret the things I’ve done than regret the things I haven’t done.
– Lucille Ball
Clawing My Way Inch By Inch Out Of The Dam Hole I dug For Myself
I understand what it feels like to look in the mirror and not like what you see. I tried so hard to get past my flaws. Unfortunately every time I thought I was getting somewhere in my life there was always someone in the shadows waiting to rip me apart.
I thought these people were my friends, but looking back I realized that those people really weren’t my friends. When people who call themselves your friend rip apart your dreams and your hopes. Those people aren’t your friends. They are actually part of your problem.
The first step in clawing your way out of your own self – created hell is to face your fears. The second step is trust your inner wisdom. I call it that because somewhere deep inside your soul you know the truth. There is an amazing person just waiting to come out.
Getting Rid Of The Dead Weight That Has Been Holding You Down
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The one thing I would like to impart to you in this post is that friends can come and go. The people that love you will support you in everything that you do. If you find yourself hiding what you do or you feel ashamed about what you do, that is a good indication that the people in your sphere are not supportive people.
It’s okay to have crazy ideas. Most successful entrepreneurs at one time or another had crazy ideas. If every creative spirit listened to the people around them our lives wouldn’t be as enriched as they are, imagine all the inventions that would never been invented.
I encourage you to live your dreams, to believe that whatever it is you are dreaming about is possible. Do surround yourself with like minded people. Trust me they are out there you just need to look for them.
The best way in my opinion is to start blogging 🙂 and let them find you…
I was reading your post and nodding as I think I am in a similar place but its when you came to the point where you identified that they people you have to hide your decisions from are the ones you really need to consider if they have a place in your life….. you might be right with that, its a nice way of evaluating both your activities and the people who you talk about to about them
Hi Kayla, sometimes you don’t want to admit that it’s the people around you that are giving you the most grief.
..I would like to believe in an ideal world everyone around you wants to see you successful in all that you do.
Often times though , that isn’t the case.. More often than not the people around you make you feel terrible about what you want to do.. Which leads you to not wanting to talk to anyone about what you do..
It’s vicious circle…
Thanks for stopping by and commenting.
“I’d rather regret the things I’ve done than regret the things I haven’t done.”
This quotation is actually has a deep impact to me, I have this experience of regrets when I was in middle school. I regret the time that I didn’t joined the violin competition because I was having this attitude of not trusting my own ability.
Hi Maris,
Thanks for stopping by and commenting.. I know what you mean.
There are things I wished I would have done but didn’t.. I think Winnie The Pooh said it best..
“there is something you must always remember. you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” – Pooh Bear 🙂
I can very well relate to you, Larry. I haven experienced the same feeling for many years..But finally it was the result of the choices i made, so I just can’t sit and crib about it. I was the one responsible for all the misery. There is nothing worst than the time when you can’t face yourself in the mirror. it is impossible to run from your own self. I have seen your mind adapts to the kind of people that surrounds you.
A lovely share..
“Do surround yourself with like minded people.” This is the best thing you can do. If you are surrounded by closed-minded people, they can make u give up your dreams.
I was powered up by your note to self. You can’t expect to move on and make the best out of everything that’s good in your life if you don’t let go of the dead weight that’s nagging on you. Dealing with your personal demons is key to a more successful and brighter outlook in life. It’s hard to dance with the devil on your back, so try to shake it off.
This post reminds me of something The Joker said. “We stopped checking for monsters under our bed when we realize they were inside us.” I guess we all have to confront our inner demons before it consumes us and turns us against the people we love and worst of all, ourselves.